Saturday, December 10, 2005
I am in self destruct mode. No, dont worry. I'm not planning on anything stupid. Just had a visit from our landlord. We are way behind in our rent. He says if we dont catch up over the next month or so he will have to evict us. I dont blame him. But I have to find the money from somewhere, and I dont know where. I also had a letter from our cable company. They provide our tv, phone and my broadband. They will be cutting us off soon if I dont find THEIR money this month. I have sold just about everything I can. Hubby has sold loads of his stuff too. We just cant get enough to do anything. How will I survive without my internet? Where will we be able to go with 5 dogs? The world is collapsing again, and I am underneath it all. I wish it would all just come crashing down and finish me off, but I know it wont. I know I will not be able to cope well with all the problems, and I know that hubby will cope even worse. I need a miracle, or maybe two or three, or maybe even four. I have been juggling money for so long now I have forgotten who I borrowed from to pay who else. DAMN! And this Adsense thing has stuffed me up too. I was going to use the money I made from that to pay the cable company. I am such a waste of time. Cant do anything right. Dont know why I bother really.
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