Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Today should have been the day I went into hospital to have my tonsillectomy. I have spent all my time since May trying to convincemyself that it is all going to be okay. Trying to make myself believe that I am not going to die in hospital due to their negligence, like Phil did. But now they have cancelled my surgery until a later date. So I am left wondering how I am going to get through the next few days, weeks, months. I know I have waited thirty years for this to happen, but I am so scared now. I just dont know how I am going to get through it. I need this tonsillectomy, badly, but I am almost ready to contact the hospital and say forget it! I'm not sure if I can get myself back to the point where I was capable of accepting it. I feel very let down.
On another bad note, we have been having a tough time here. My neices ex partner used to have complete and unresticted access to their baby. He had her to stay overnight with him. But when it was time to bring her back to her Mom, there was no sign of him. Then my neice got a phone call saying he was never bringing the baby back to her. She would never see her baby again. Well, as you can imagine, the family went beserk! Search parties went out, friends, neighbours, family, all searching. Then we called the police in. The ex partner and the baby were found, safe and well, but not before my neice almost collapsed with worry. She is now only allowing supervised visits, and the ex partner is no longer allowed to have the baby overnight. My neice is seeing a solicitor early next month to see where she stands, and what she can do.
Now a good note. Ty is doing really well. My fat little grandson is putting on an average of 2 pounds every two weeks. The midwife, the health visitor, and the doctor are all extremely pleased with him. He is in a routine and is already mananging to sleep right through the night.
My daughter, Kristi, is pretty much back to normal now, and is coping well. I know she was having a few worries near the end of her pregnancy. She thought she might not be able to cope, but she is managing perfectly well. I am so proud of her.
Good finish for Tony at last weekends race. Thats my boy!!!
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Monday, September 11, 2006
Now I am really mad. I just got a phonecall from the hospital. They have cancelled my op, and will reschedule it for some time after the 20th. So now I have even MORE time to worry about it. And I have to unmake all the details I had already got in place.
Feels like my Dothiepin are not working as well as they were. Dont know if its just because I am so stressed or what. But added to my problems, Clive still isn't sleeping, so I am getting tireder and tireder (is tireder a word? Well it is now).
posted by tazfan at 10:13 am comment(s) made:
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Sunday, September 10, 2006
So, I finally get the date for my tonsillectomy. 19th September. I have waited over 30 years to get them out, and what am I doing now? I'm scaring myself to death! What if they dont knock me out properly, and I feel everything? What if I dont come round after the op? What if I go into a coma? What if.......what if.......what if.......!!! Just how pathetic is that? 9 days. Thats all I have left before I go in. It's a day op, so I should be home again by late afternoon, early evening.
Ty is growing so fast! He has put on 4 pounds in 4 weeks. And he is a typical male (sorry guys), always yelling for something. Kristi istired. The other three grandkids wee all really good, quiet and peaceful, but not Ty. There is nothing wrong with him, he just likes the sound of his own voice
Okay, ignore me in that pic. I was tired, I look fatter then ever with those double chins, but its because I am looking down, and have my chin down on my chest.
Tony is out of the chase. Congrats to all the Harvick fans for the two wins. Congrats to the Kenseth fans, Matt out front in the chase. Congrats to the Kasey fans. Your boy done good! HUGE kudos to Denny hamlin. Man that boy reminds me SO much of Tony as a rookie! Nice huh?
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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Quick visit. This is the fifth time today I have tried to get an internet connection to let me post on here. I just want everyone to know I am okay. Finally got my date for my tonsillectomy. 19th September. Scared witless now. But I really need to get those little swine OUT of my throat before they swell up AGAIN!!
New grandson is doing well. Putting on weight nicely, and his Mom is fine too.
Hope I will be back to normal with the internet soon. maybe a week or two. Wish me luck.
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